My game lately has been going to hell in a hand basket, at least I’m enjoying the ride. The past couple of weeks at the club I had been playing real sloppy. Revisiting my thought process, I found I hit that human wall of inconsistency. This past week for instance, I went through the opening rather unscathed and in book. My opponent even knew my opening and was compliant up until he knew what difficult line to throw at me.
Then my brain went on FICS… because I’m still indulging WAY too much on this scourge of my chess game. I saw a cheap shot, only did a cursory check of threats and let go of my piece. My opponent, taking more time, was able to see a double attack. I played the rest of the game in a slow spiral starting with a bishop down, then a rook and then, when I could not be a pain in the ass anymore… I resigned.
Last month, I was doing real well. I was focusing on thought process as I described here with much improvement in my ability to carry out a decent game. I thought I’d jump into FICS and practice more on the thought process in action. Since I’m finding that this game is one where we have to practice more than collecting more knowledge, I justified going to FICS as a healthy means to do such. Well, its not working, I am not practicing my thought process, rather I am looking for cheap shots and not doing “real” chess.
On the other hand, there is something appealing about it. Last year at the WO, I played in a side blitz tournament ( insanely after 11PM) and did poorly. So … more justification I suppose.. I look at the FICS-Blitz as a good way to practice blitz …which I realize I SUCK at. Also, relaxing after work without fear of losing my “real” rating… and only having my FICS rating affected is appealing.
Moderation… as in anything else, is the key. I need to get back to working on my thought process so I can be consistent at OTB events I attend. This is my goal this year. Its not a rating threshold like I had in the past, rather, I want to play more consistently. Not like I am doing currently or have done in the past. Why can I be so “ON” in one event, and the next one I go to, it’s like my brain has been replaced. Am I a chess schizophrenic? Well, I am human I suppose. We all have off days.
I send this Huzzah out to chessloser! He’s attending his first USCF tournament. May your brain be with you.
Have a good weekend all.